My daughter Abigail’s funeral was the darkest moment of my life.

The church in a quiet town in Vermont was overflowing with people, colleagues, neighbors, distant relatives, and unfamiliar faces who had come to say goodbye. Flowers crowded the altar in pale whites and soft pinks while candles flickered along the stone walls and the organ played a slow hymn that seemed to stretch time itself.

Despite the crowd pressing in from every direction, I had never felt so completely alone in my life. I stood a few steps from the sealed casket, staring at it as if I could force it open and hear her voice just one more time.