When Ethan told me he wanted to “press pause,” I thought he meant he needed a week to breathe. He said his family in Washington needed him, and the stress of our life in the city was becoming a suffocating fog. He kissed my forehead, packed a single duffel bag, and promised we’d talk soon.
Then came the silence.
Day three: “Did you land okay? Tell your mom I say hi.” No reply. Day seven: “I’m starting to get worried. Please just send a thumbs up.” Read receipts stayed grey. By week three, my worry had curdled into a cold, hard knot of resentment. I called him twelve times in one night. I left a voicemail that started with tears and ended with the question I was terrified to ask: “Are we over? Did you just break up with me by leaving?”
Nothing.
My best friend, Sarah, staged an intervention at week four. “He’s ghosting you, Maya. Nobody is ‘too busy’ with family to send a text for a month. He’s a coward who chose an exit ramp without a confrontation.”
I hated that she was right. I spent the fifth week grieving. I boxed up his hoodies. I changed my bedsheets. And, at Sarah’s insistence, I finally stopped staring at my phone. I decided that if he had unpaused his life without me, I had to do the same.
Six weeks to the day after he left, I was in my kitchen making coffee when I heard a key turn in the lock. My heart jumped into my throat.
Ethan walked in. He looked tired, his hair longer, but he was beaming. He didn’t look like a man who had spent six weeks ignoring his girlfriend; he looked like a man who had just won the lottery.
“I’m back,” he whispered, dropping his bags. “I’m so sorry I stayed away so long, Maya. I needed to clear the noise. I needed to know for sure.” He walked toward me, ignoring my frozen expression, and dropped to one knee. Out of his pocket came a velvet box. “I’m ready to unpause. I’m ready for everything. Maya, marry me.”
I was paralyzed. The shock wasn’t just the proposal—it was the audacity. The absolute, reality-bending gall to ignore a human being for forty-two days and then ask for their forever.
But before I could find the breath to scream or say yes or throw my coffee at him, Ethan’s face transformed. His joy vanished, replaced by a mask of pure, distorted rage. He looked over my shoulder toward the hallway leading to my bedroom and screamed:
“I KNEW YOU’D DO THIS, TRAITOR!”
I spun around, my heart hammering against my ribs. I expected to see a man—some secret lover Ethan imagined I’d found in his absence.
Instead, I saw Mark.
Mark was Ethan’s younger brother. But he wasn’t standing there as a romantic rival. He was leaning against the doorframe, holding a stack of mail and a spare key, looking absolutely disgusted.
“I’m the traitor?” Mark’s voice was low and dangerous. “I’m the one who stayed here for three weeks, Ethan? I’m the one who sat on this couch and watched Maya cry herself to sleep because she thought you were dead or that you’d abandoned her?”
Ethan stood up, the engagement ring still clutched in his shaking hand. “You were supposed to stay out of it! I told you I was going on a ‘clarity retreat’! I told you not to tell her where I was!”
“No,” Mark snapped, walking into the kitchen. “You told me you were breaking up with her and to ‘keep an eye’ on the apartment until you could get your stuff. But then I got here and found out you hadn’t even told her. You blocked her number, Ethan. I saw the texts she sent you. I saw you reading them on your tablet while we were in Washington.”
The room went cold. I looked at Ethan. “You saw them? You saw me asking if you were okay? You saw me asking if we were broken up?”
Ethan scrambled for an excuse. “It was part of the process! I had to see if I missed you! I had to see if you’d stay loyal even when things were dark! If you really loved me, you would have waited without questioning me!”
The “Traitor” wasn’t Mark because of an affair. To Ethan’s warped mind, Mark was a traitor because he had provided me with the truth. Mark had shown up two weeks ago, not to move in, but to tell me Ethan was perfectly fine, sitting on a porch in Washington, playing video games and “finding himself.”
Mark had been the one to help me realize I deserved better. He had helped me move Ethan’s remaining things into a storage unit just yesterday.
“The ‘pause’ is over, Ethan,” I said, my voice finally steady.
“So, is that a yes?” he asked, incredibly, gesturing to the ring.
“It’s a ‘get out,'” I replied. “You didn’t go away to find clarity. You went away to play a cruel game of emotional chicken to see how much I’d endure. Mark isn’t the traitor. You are. You betrayed the person you claimed to love for a power trip.”
Ethan looked from me to his brother, the realization finally sinking in that his grand “test” had failed. He didn’t leave with a wife; he left with his bags and a brother who wouldn’t look him in the eye.
When the door finally clicked shut, the silence in the apartment was different. It wasn’t the silence of waiting or wondering. It was the silence of peace.
I looked at Mark. “Thanks for the mail.”
“Anytime,” he said. “Want to go get some actual dinner? I think we both need a drink.”
“I think I’m done with ‘pauses’ for a while,” I smiled. “Let’s just go.”
