That sounded like Harrison had understood perfectly.
“I don’t know how to fix this,” she whispered.
“You don’t fix nineteen years,” I said. “You start with one honest day.”
She cried then. Not dramatically. Not for effect. Quietly.
“Will Dylan talk to me?”
“That is up to him.”
“Will you tell him I’m sorry?”
“No,” I said. “You can tell him yourself, if he lets you.”
For the first time in my life, I did not carry her message for her.
Rita did not call for months.
Gerald sent one letter. Handwritten. Short.
Myra, I should have said more years ago. I am sorry I didn’t. Dylan is a fine young man. That is because of you. Dad.
I read it three times.
Then I put it in the fireproof safe.
Not because it fixed him.
Because it was proof that silence, at least once, had cracked.
Dylan left for college that August on a scholarship. He chose education policy, with a minor in biology because he still liked knowing why cereal boxes listed riboflavin. On move-in day, he packed the yellow blanket in a small box with his important papers.
“You taking that?” I asked.
He nodded. “It belongs with the origin documents.”
I laughed. “You sound like a lawyer.”
“Maybe someday.”
His dorm smelled like fresh paint, laundry detergent, and nervous teenagers. We made his bed. Arranged books. Set up his desk lamp. I placed a framed photo of us from graduation on the shelf, the one Claire took after the speech. His arm around my shoulders. My face blotchy from crying. Both of us laughing.