Valerie cried. I didn’t hug her. There were still wounds with jagged edges.
But I took her hand. And sometimes, that’s enough to stop hating.
That night, I went back to my apartment alone. There were no balloons or roses. I moved the furniture around, painted a wall blue, and threw out the “Mr. & Mrs.” mugs.
In the bedroom, I opened a drawer and found the black card I thought I’d given back to Santiago. It had stayed tucked between papers, like an elegant cockroach.
I picked it up with two fingers.
Then I took a pair of scissors and cut it into tiny pieces.
My hand didn’t shake.
From the window, the city sparkled, dirty and alive. Long Island was far away, with its glass towers looking down on everyone. Midtown roared below with full restaurants, valet parking, and women walking on impossible heels. The city streets were lit up like neon veins.
I took a deep breath.
For the first time since the wedding, I didn’t feel like I was missing something.
The next day, I went back to the courthouse.
Not to the same desk. Not in the same dress. Not as the same Mariana.
I requested a certified copy of my divorce decree. When they handed it to me, the paper was also warm.
I held it with both hands.
The last time I walked out of there, Santiago handed me a card and a lie.
This time, I walked out alone.
And outside, under a clean sky after the rain, there was no SUV waiting, no husband, no roses, no black folder.
Just me.
With my signature.
With my name.
With my life back.