Four weeks after my emergency C-section, I could barely stand. My body was still stitched together, a landscape of bruised tissue, staples, and phantom pains that shot through my abdomen every time I dared to shift my weight. My newborn daughter, Emma, cried day and night. She wasn’t just fussy; she was colicky, her tiny fists balled up in perpetual frustration, her face turning a terrifying shade of crimson. And I hadn’t slept more than two hours in days. The kind of sleep deprivation I was experiencing felt violent—like a physical weight pressing down on my skull, blurring the edges of my vision and making the walls of our small nursery hum.