My name is Megan Lawson, and my daughter is Katie, and six months before that night my husband Captain Mark Lawson died on the other side of the world in a place whose name still tastes like metal whenever I try to say it out loud. Since then every ordinary thing has split into before and after, because before I believed in endless tomorrows and after I learned time can drag and lurch in ways that make simple mornings feel impossible and impossible moments feel strangely manageable.

I had not wanted to bring Katie to the father daughter dance, and that is the first truth I must admit even now. The second truth is that she wanted to go with a quiet stubborn hope that made saying no feel like its own cruelty.