I rationed everything. Formula first for Emily. Water for both of us. Small bites of canned food for me only when dizziness came. I changed her on an old blanket, folding each diaper carefully, trying to keep our space clean. When she cried too long, I sang the lullabies I had once sung to David, and that hurt in a way I can’t fully describe. More than once, I had to stop because the bitterness rose so sharply I thought I might choke.