im 26m and my hands are literally shaking typing this

my girlfriend emma (25f) and i have been together for 3 years. my best friend jake ive known since high school. these were the two most important people in my life

last month emma started acting weird. always on her phone, distant, said it was work stress. jake started being flaky too. cancelling plans, ignoring group chats. i thought he was going through something

last night i went to surprise emma with food. her roommate said she left hours ago with “that tall guy with the tattoos”

jake has very specific arm tattoos

i just knew. drove to his place and both their cars were there. sat outside for 20 minutes trying to convince myself i was wrong

knocked on his door. took forever to answer. he opened it in sweatpants looking guilty as hell. emmas jacket was on his couch

i just asked “how long” and he couldnt look at me. emma came out from his bedroom crying

4 months. started at my birthday party when they were drunk. kept happening after that

4 months of him playing video games on my couch knowing what he did. 4 months of her saying she loved me every night

i just left without saying anything. blocked them both when i got home

now jakes texting my brother trying to apologize. emma keeps calling from random numbers. they both keep saying it was a mistake

you dont accidentally f*ck your best friends girlfriend for 4 months

i took off work today because i cant function. my whole support system was those two people and now theyre gone

does this get better or am i gonna feel like this forever