Chapter 1: The Red Light

The Seattle rain doesn’t just fall; it infiltrates. It seeps into the marrow of your bones, washing away any illusion of warmth you might be clinging to. I stood on the porch of the Hillcrest House, my body still humming with the violent, tearing trauma of childbirth. Every ragged breath I drew tugged mercilessly at the fresh stitches hidden beneath my heavy wool maternity dress. Against my chest, my newborn daughter, Lily, slept in her carrier, a tiny, fragile furnace of heat against the biting autumn wind. My hospital bag, stuffed with mesh underwear and discharge papers, sat slumped beside my swollen feet, slowly soaking up the puddles gathering on the imported slate tiles.