Then, I broke.

For weeks, I said nothing.

I smiled. I nodded. I had tea with Melissa and asked her about her job like she hadn’t just stolen my husband out from under me. I thanked her for dropping off groceries like her hands hadn’t been all over my bedsheets. I let my lips curl into a practiced smile, one I’d worn like armor since the diagnosis. I nodded at her stories, even as her laughter hit me like glass.