The day of my husband’s funeral was supposed to be the hardest day of my life because of the silence Arthur left behind. Instead, it became the loudest day of my life—filled with the buzzing of a hundred judgmental bees.

I stood by the mahogany casket, my veil heavy with the scent of lilies and heartbreak, waiting for my daughter, Chloe. I had hoped that the finality of losing her father would “snap” her back to reality. We hadn’t spoken in six months, ever since she’d dropped out of grad school and started “finding herself” in ways that felt more like losing herself.