Grief is a strange, heavy thing. It settles in your bones and makes the world look slightly out of focus. When my mother, Eleanor, died peacefully in her sleep at the age of 89, I felt like the anchor of my life had been cut loose. She was my everything. A single mother who had dedicated her entire existence to raising me in our quiet, idyllic suburban home. She was a pillar of the community, a retired kindergarten teacher who baked pies for the neighbors and always left the porch light on for me.