The Child He Chose First

The preschool bus was climbing through the Laurel Highlands toward a small educational farm when my five-year-old son, Jamie, pressed his forehead against the window and began counting barns. He wore a navy blazer with brass buttons, slightly too large across the shoulders, and every few minutes he smoothed the lapels with both hands.

“Dad picked this one,” he told me proudly. “He’ll see me right away when he gets to the farm.”

I smiled because I could not bring myself to tell him that his father had never seen the blazer. A receptionist from Bradley’s architecture firm had ordered it after I reminded her that Jamie needed something formal for his kindergarten celebration. Bradley had forgotten the event, just as he had forgotten the parent conference, the winter concert, and nearly every ordinary moment that mattered to our son.