Julian knew my mother came from the Fairchild family, but he believed the connection was distant. I never corrected him. At first, I did not think it mattered. Later, I wanted to know whether he loved me without it.

That choice became its own kind of dishonesty.

Meanwhile, Blackwell Meridian quietly needed emergency financing. Fairchild Capital was one of the institutions reviewing the rescue package. I disclosed my relationship with Julian and recused myself from normal negotiations, but the board still required my final approval because the exposure was too large.