The air in the funeral home was thick with the scent of lilies and the quiet murmur of thirty-six years’ worth of shared friends. I was fifty-five, and for the first time in my adult life, I felt untethered. Greg was gone. The man who knew how I took my tea, the man who held the ladder while I painted the nursery we eventually realized would never be used, was now just a still figure in a mahogany box.