“Mom, it’s just temporary.”
“Mom, you know I wouldn’t ask if it wasn’t important.”
“Mom, don’t make me look bad in front of my wife.”
I always justified it, telling myself they were busy, that they loved me in their own way, and that as a mother, I should keep giving.
I told myself mothers did not keep score.
I told myself love was not supposed to ask for anything back.
I told myself a hundred gentle lies because the truth was too ugly to sit beside.
But as the clock ticked past 8 p.m., the crushing weight of their silence broke me.
I looked at the cupcake again.
The candle leaned slightly to one side, as if even it had given up trying to stand tall.
Fifty years old.
Three children.
Two sons who had forgotten me.
One daughter who was probably at her evening class or work shift, too tired to come by, though Clara had at least kissed my cheek that morning and said she would see me later.