“Yes,” I told him. “Ten.”
He never called again.
After a while, I stopped pretending there was room for dating. My evenings belonged to homework, baths, school lunches, fevers, bills, and bedtime prayers.
I never dated anyone again, but I was still happy because I had them.
He never called again.
***
My parents stayed angry for years and refused to help. My mother called every Christmas as if checking a box.
“Are you still doing this, Margaret?”
“They’re my children, Mama.”
“They are someone else’s children!”
“No,” I said gently. “They are mine.”
Eventually, I stopped answering.
And somehow, life kept going.
My parents stayed angry.
***
Amanda became a pediatric nurse. Derrick opened a small auto shop. Sue became a third-grade teacher. Jacob and David became engineers and still argued over everything. Sophie became a social worker and once told me she chose that profession because she wanted to be for other children what I had been for her.
I cried in the kitchen for an hour after she left that day.
Thirty years passed, and I don’t regret a single thing.
I cried in the kitchen for an hour.
***
Every Saturday, my children returned to the house I’d somehow managed to keep. Grandchildren ran through the yard. The kitchen smelled of roast chicken, tea, and Amanda’s lemon cake.
