I thought my son was just hiding senior-year jitters in the garage. But when his prom date stepped out of the car, she wasn’t a teenage girl. She was my dead husband’s biggest secret.

The kitchen window framed a soft spring evening, the kind of gold light that made the lawn look like something out of a magazine. I stood at the sink with a dish towel in my hand that I had forgotten to use, watching the sky go pink behind the neighbor’s maple.

For the first time in months, I let my shoulders drop.

Austin had been quiet all year.

Not sad, exactly. Just somewhere I couldn’t reach.

Austin had been quiet all year.

I had told myself it was senior-year jitters. College letters. The weight of being almost-grown.

But it was more than that, and I knew it, even if I refused to name it.

His father had been gone nine years. Long enough that I had stopped flinching at the empty chair, and still I caught myself, some nights, setting the table for three without thinking.

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