“I should have seen something,” he said.
“So should I,” I whispered.
He pulled back. “No. He hid it. That’s on him.”
The next month moved with strange speed. I returned to Daniel’s house once, escorted by police, to collect the rest of my belongings. Calling it Daniel’s house felt correct now. I had lived there for only two nights as his wife. My clothes were still in moving boxes. My favorite coffee mug sat in the cabinet, clean and untouched. The bed was made.
Vanessa was there. She leaned against the hallway wall with crossed arms while I packed.
“You’re enjoying this, aren’t you?” she said.
I ignored her.
She followed me into the bedroom. “Daniel is barely sleeping.”
I folded sweaters into a suitcase.
“He cries,” she said. “He actually cries because of you.”
I looked at her then. She wore sweatpants and one of Daniel’s old college hoodies. Her hair was pulled into a messy bun, and her eyes were sharp with resentment.
“Vanessa,” I said, “your brother hit me.”
Her mouth tightened. “You provoked him.”
“No. I disobeyed the system you two built.”
For the first time, she had no instant reply.
I closed the suitcase. “You wanted me to become what you were used to,” I continued. “Someone who cooked, cleaned, served, stayed quiet, and took the blame when Daniel lost control. I was in that house for two days, and he already showed me the rules. I’m lucky he showed me early.”
Her face flushed. “You think you’re better than us.”