The video looped. Again, he toasted. Again, they laughed. High-maintenance wives. Choose yourself. Happy birthday to me.
I lay face-down on the carpet, my blood pooling slowly beneath me, my baby wailing a foot away, and my husband was celebrating his freedom. The disconnect was so vast, so obscene, that it felt like a nightmare I couldn’t wake from. I tried to dial 911, but my fingers were too weak to swipe. The phone slipped from my grasp and skittered away.
The edges of my consciousness began to fray. The room dimmed. Ethan’s cries grew distant, echoing, as if he were already a memory. I thought of my mother, who had died when I was twenty. I thought of the first time I felt Ethan kick. I thought of how Ryan had danced with me at our wedding, promising to love me in sickness and in health. I closed my eyes. I couldn’t fight anymore.
But someone else was listening.
My neighbor, Helen Russo, lived in the bungalow next door. She was seventy-two, a widow, a retired OB nurse who had delivered over three thousand babies in her forty-year career. I’d only known her a few months, but she’d become a quiet, grandmotherly presence in my life—she brought over homemade soup after the birth, offered to walk our dog, and insisted I call her for anything. When we set up the nursery, Ryan had struggled with the Wi-Fi baby monitor, and Helen had come over to help. She’d written down the access code and tucked it in her kitchen drawer “for emergencies.” I’d laughed and said I hoped we’d never need it.
That morning, Helen was in her kitchen making Earl Grey tea when she heard a faint thud through our shared wall. It was just a bump, but years of instinct prickled at her. She waited, listening. Then came the cries—not just newborn fussing, but the distinct, frantic shriek of a baby in distress, the kind that made her heart race. She called my cell. No answer. She tried the house phone. No answer. She didn’t hesitate.