I flatlined twice while the nurses pumped my chest, and in that same sterile hour, my husband of thirty-two years was standing just beyond the ICU doors, signing divorce papers as if he were endorsing a check.
I didn’t know then, of course. My body was a stranger to me, a battlefield of tubes, wires, and the stubborn, muffled beep of a heart monitor that refused to flatline for good. But I learned later, from a nurse who wept while she told me, that when the doctor warned Grant I might not survive the night, he didn’t ask about my chances. He didn’t ask if I was in pain. He didn’t ask about our daughter’s triplets—the three tiny souls I’d promised to raise because my girl was fighting her own demons two states away. Instead, he looked at his attorney, a man who had been at our wedding reception thirty years ago, and asked with a voice as flat as a winter lake: “So, how fast can we finalize this?”